urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eod666 aint got no respect michael lewis 2005-06-09T23:34:51Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eod666:11805 2005-06-09T23:34:51Z 2005-06-09T23:34:51Z michael, after a long livejournal hiatus, is back in action <br /><span class='ljuser ljuser-name_averagefury' lj:user='averagefury' style='white-space: nowrap;'><a href='http://averagefury.livejournal.com/profile'><img src='http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif' alt='[info]' width='17' height='17' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /></a><a href='http://averagefury.livejournal.com/'><b>averagefury</b></a></span> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eod666:11598 2005-04-15T03:01:31Z 2005-04-15T03:01:31Z Highlighter84: why did you "hello" me earlier?<br />O35792 5: oh i apologize for saying hello.<br />Highlighter84: apology accepted<br />O35792 5: i really really dislike you :-<br />O35792 5: :-D<br />Highlighter84: yet you keep talking to me. oh and about the message you sent a while back. why would you think I was heart broken? thats just funny. I'm not, I'm ajust a little hurt that someone I thought was a genuine person was really just some character you made up<br />O35792 5: you're a stupid uninteresting queen. period :-)<br />Highlighter84: wow that one hurt<br />Highlighter84: your opinion is so improtant after all<br />Highlighter84: this coming from someone whose nothing but a product of their friends after all<br />O35792 5: it is to people who actually realize that i'm better than them. dont worry. one day you'll catch up.<br />Highlighter84: sorry I try not to back track on the amotional maturity much but nice of you to comment<br />Highlighter84: *emotional<br />O35792 5: i like the fact that you keep telling me i'm immature when really i just liked to play head games because i'm smarter than you.<br />O35792 5: and it worked :-)<br />O35792 5: chris, criss, and i know the truth. and because we realize moral truth, we are better people than try-to-be psudeo intellecuals like yourself.<br />O35792 5: and its so easy to fuck with people who are completely oblivious to the world. enter drew.<br />Highlighter84: that was no head game michael. that was an emotional game. I choose to be trusting because it's better than living in fear that someone is not genuine. but I'm also strong enough to take it when that turns out to be false<br />O35792 5: well it was an emotional game too. that was the fun part. and trusting? please.<br />Highlighter84: you'll never have what I do....you'll always cut people off and pretend not to care when it becomes clear they actually like who you're pretending to be<br />O35792 5: i played you like my last pawn and i won. thats all that matters.<br />O35792 5: i actually just wanted to see what drew was all about<br />O35792 5: i wanted to experience the hype<br />Highlighter84: and?<br />O35792 5: and then when i found out that your reputation had nothing to do with who you really were, i got angry and decided to just fuck with you.<br />Highlighter84: did you figure out the hype is bullshit....it's just me<br />O35792 5: sure<br />O35792 5: and i don't just cut people off and pretend not to care.<br />O35792 5: i honestly don't care.<br />Highlighter84: I never asked for hype. and I certainly never asked to meet someone so jealous of my hype that they would try to play me and fail miserably not realizing I really can't be hurt by half ass loser like yourself for long<br />O35792 5: thats laughable.<br />O35792 5: i wasn't jealous of your hype, i just wanted to see what it was all about.<br />O35792 5: and i didn't fail.<br />O35792 5: you "felt something"<br />O35792 5: and when you did, i won.<br />Highlighter84: I still do. I still think someday you'll realize if you ever need someone to be there you can always come to me. you can you know. you don't have to have such a hard shell<br />Highlighter84: just remember you have a friend if you need one alright<br />O35792 5: why are you trying to be decent with me?<br />O35792 5: the only reason you had hype is because you're a slut.<br />O35792 5: and thats it.<br />O35792 5: no one knows your for being smart or caring<br />Highlighter84: wow you really did fail at getting to know me<br />O35792 5: that wasnt my intention at all.<br />Highlighter84: try actually talking to my friends sometime<br />Highlighter84: so you want me to fit into your little slut theory and yet I try to show my heart and you push that away? thats paradosical<br />Highlighter84: *x<br />O35792 5: you didnt show me your heart<br />O35792 5: i'm just disappointed that you are such a communist.<br />O35792 5: which is the zenith of evil.<br />O35792 5: i really hope you realize the truth one day. i vaguely tried to help you, but you're too far into your sexuality to accept it.<br />O35792 5: i mean, someone who abandons their religion to acquire a comfort level with their sexuality is never going to be strong enough to carry around any kind of moral truth.<br />Highlighter84: no i believe you have this confused my religion abandoned me, it made me an outsider when i did nothing but try to live a moral life<br />Highlighter84: you are clearly the person with a problem you think being gay is immoral and yet you are<br />Highlighter84: take some time and then get back to me when you ACTUALLY have something intelligent to say<br />O35792 5: you didn't give up mormanism, you gave up christ.<br />O35792 5: and i don't think its immoral to be gay.<br />Highlighter84: you misspelled mormonism and christ is a figment of your imagination<br />Highlighter84: apparently you do<br />O35792 5: apparently how<br />O35792 5: where do you get this from?<br />Highlighter84: my religion didnt accept me for who i was so i had to leave<br />Highlighter84: they dont accept homosexuality<br />O35792 5: that is selfish<br />O35792 5: and you abandoned christ<br />Highlighter84: so i didnt abandon it, it failed me<br />Highlighter84: there is no christ<br />O35792 5: damn you are sooo going to hell.<br />Highlighter84: what dont you understand about this<br />Highlighter84: good<br />O35792 5: besides that ...<br />Highlighter84: thats where everyone is going anyway<br />Highlighter84: if there is such a place<br />O35792 5: you admitted to me your desire to be a slut! which just proves you will do anything to appease your sexual desires!<br />O35792 5: which makes you a slut<br />Highlighter84: wow you really need to let go of the slut thing<br />Highlighter84: its bringing you down<br />O35792 5: no it isnt<br />O35792 5: i'm just saying that you hold onto your sexuality like its a cock. literally.<br />O35792 5: and it makes you look like an idiot<br />Highlighter84: its the best ride ive ever had<br />Highlighter84: why<br />Highlighter84: b/c i accept myself<br />O35792 5: how can i respect someone who says something like "i want to go to the dock and hook up because it's fun" and "i want to be a twink"<br />Highlighter84: yeah i said those things jokingly<br />O35792 5: you were not joking.<br />O35792 5: you spent your tax return money on clothes that help you fit the motif.<br />Highlighter84: the dock was long ago a place i spent time but now its somewhere that poser loser ass retards go<br />Highlighter84: so i can no longer frequent it<br />Highlighter84: i bought clothes b/c i work hard<br />Highlighter84: im sorry i enjoy shopping<br />Highlighter84: is that illegal?<br />O35792 5: so now you're just pulling your pants down on the highway<br />Highlighter84: i didnt hear any complaints<br />Highlighter84: slut<br />O35792 5: excuse me?<br />Highlighter84: you only wish you could be only half as good as me<br />O35792 5: you called me a slut and now i'm calling you out to explain explain explain, varify, validate, etc.<br />O35792 5: hahahahah!<br />Highlighter84: ok you fooled around with me but there was no emotional connection<br />Highlighter84: by definition you are a slut<br />Highlighter84: welcome to the club<br />O35792 5: drew i used you.<br />Highlighter84: your membership will arrive in 8-10 business days<br />Highlighter84: you still fooled around with me<br />Highlighter84: still counts<br />O35792 5: i fooled around with you. that doesnt make me a slut. YOU are a slut. want to compare numbers? how many people have you fucked/blown/jacked off/made out with?<br />O35792 5: i'm at .... 5/8/9/11<br />O35792 5: or are you too stupid to count that high?<br />Highlighter84: my numbers dropped off over a year ago. I was most definitely a slut long ago and thats all you have on me....so try to insult the me I've become. or are you too busy "not caring" to know who that is<br />Highlighter84: you don't fool me<br />Highlighter84: I know who you are....a loser with no drive in life that doens't include hurting people...wow how christ like<br />O35792 5: wow.<br />Highlighter84: so now whose going to hell<br />O35792 5: i'm going to skip the two page retort and just call you a fucking idiot.<br />O35792 5: you are a god damn commie!<br />Highlighter84: cause thats out of the ordinary<br />O35792 5: you are the reason that our country's moral value is declining and the reason that gay people are bashed!<br />O35792 5: you give me a bad name and i resent you for it.<br />Highlighter84: hey the line for the time machine to the cold war forms to the left<br />O35792 5: your sarcastic quips aren't going to save you from realization. they will just delay it.<br />O35792 5: just admit to me that you are a horrible person and all will be well.<br />Highlighter84: yeah thats me i only head the alliance at UC, i support other gay people and you only seem to tear yourself and them down<br />Highlighter84: i am going to return to my first point that you are not comfortable with your sexuality b/c it does not fit into a neat little package, it in fact goes against everything you believe<br />Highlighter84: reconcile yourself with your God and then talk to me<br />O35792 5: you head the alliance which is a group that funds and supports murder and theft. you support other gay people's erections - not their problems.<br />Highlighter84: ive been there and done all of this you have many many years ahead of you before you get where i am<br />O35792 5: why do you assume i'm uncomfortable with being gay?<br />O35792 5: many years?<br />O35792 5: if i sucked 200 dicks i'd be where you are.<br />O35792 5: and i think i could do that in a couple days.<br />Highlighter84: well the mass murder for april lost funding but luckily wwe still have may. hope the ufb board approves it<br />Highlighter84: god you're such an idiot<br />Highlighter84: we support peoples ability to think for themselves about their sexuality and not let others tell them how to think....case in point, michael<br />O35792 5: explain how i'm an idiot. you've tried proving to me and the libertarians that you're an intellectual but you've failed pretty miserably. care to recompensate?<br />Highlighter84: actually I've never tried proving anything to them they don't even exist to me for the most part. and the only thing I wanted to prove to you is that you aren't fooling me with your fake ass apathy<br />O35792 5: drew, to sum you up - you're a stupid, presumptious liberal faggot with no redeeming qualities and whenever you showed any kind heartedness it was because you had cum on your mind.<br />Highlighter84: why would you put compliments like liberal and faggot in that attempt to insult me<br />Highlighter84: a bit inconsistent wouldn't you say<br />O35792 5: .... liberal is not a compliment.<br />O35792 5: liberalism is close to communism.<br />Highlighter84: and libertarianism is close to absent mindedness<br />O35792 5: i'm gay. chris is gay. criss is gay. you are a faggot.<br />O35792 5: how the fuck is libertarianism close to absent mindedness?<br />O35792 5: you obviously don't know what libertarianism is, you presumptious whore<br />Highlighter84: could you please try some new adjectives<br />O35792 5: i'm using the ones that best describe you<br />Highlighter84: when you decide to think for yourself you might turn out ok<br />O35792 5: who thinks for me?<br />Highlighter84: until then I'm sorry your a big enough idiot to think some 2000 year old dead man gives two shits about you<br />Highlighter84: and your internalized homophobic friends are just as bad if not worse<br />Highlighter84: you aren't strong enough to love yourself for who you are....so my attempt to study you are complet. you are just plain weak<br />O35792 5: cut the bullshit, bitch. i am not my friends. chris is not me. start attacking me and forget blaming my friends for who i am.<br />O35792 5: lol.<br />O35792 5: drew, i love myself more than anything. it's you who hates himself.<br />O35792 5: you look in the mirror everyday and see ever teaspoon of cum you've swolloed<br />O35792 5: you see that YOU are weak because you abandoned a whole belief system so you could feel comfortable taking it up the ass<br />O35792 5: and now its come back to make you feel horrible<br />O35792 5: you ran away. you are a coward.<br />O35792 5: you support murder, theft, and immoral behavior.<br />O35792 5: you are a communist.<br />Highlighter84: my time is yours whenever you nee something. I actually am a caring person you know. so stop trying to build a false image in your mindto make this easier for yourself<br />O35792 5: why would i try to make things easier for myself?<br />Highlighter84: haha wow you honestly think I'm completely oblivious to your facade<br />O35792 5: and my friends and i ... we love you. because you epitomize everything we hate.<br />O35792 5: facade?<br />O35792 5: please?<br />O35792 5: come on, talk to me. be the bigger man.<br />O35792 5: don't abandon me, drew. i'm not your parents.<br />Highlighter84: you mean the parents I see and talk to on a regular basis<br />Highlighter84: nice assumption dickweed<br />Highlighter84: or maybe your dad would like to help yoyu accpet yourself....oh wait<br />O35792 5: my dad is bi, you idiot<br />Highlighter84: my point exactly you half wit<br />Highlighter84: you ponder that and I'll be at sitwells<br />Highlighter84: later<br />O35792 5: im coming<br />O35792 5: well actually not<br />O35792 5: i hate you bye &lt;3<br />O35792 5: put your away message up so i can read your last word pathetic retort to everything i've said to you<br />Highlighter84: bye buddy:-D<br />O35792 5: and dont forget to end it with a buffy quote, faggot.<br />Highlighter84: ok then<br />Highlighter84: if you insist<br />O35792 5: hurry up.i have a headache, i needa good laugh.<br />Highlighter84: heres a good one for you then...<br />Highlighter84: a smart libertarian walked into a bar<br />Highlighter84 is away at 7:35:31 PM.<br />O35792 5: :-)<br />Auto response from Highlighter84: sitwells for coffee with thom and jess :-D<br /><br />...oh and here you go (by request)<br /><br />"I may be dead but I'm still pretty...which is more than I can say for you"<br />O35792 5: there we go. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eod666:11286 2005-01-31T13:49:26Z 2005-01-31T13:49:26Z the smiths - some girls are bigger than others "i am human and i need to be loved just like everybody else does"<br />- my friend morrissey.<br /><br />i spent a lot of time with mike (casey) over the weekend. i like him so so much. we have a lot in common and we get a long great. the physical attraction between us is off the scale and we're already both infatuated with each other as people.<br />he cant get over the fact that i'm a bassist.<br /><br />thats right ladies and gentlemen, for the low low price of practicing bass guitar every day of your life for three and a half years, you too can have super hot irish gay boys drooling at your feet.<br /><br />god i'm a fuckin rock star.<br /><br />so i'm sitting here freshly showered with a sting in my left eye. i'm waiting for the mum to get here. we're going to the social security office and then im going to work. i'm so excited about my job, its nuts. i mean - i just walked into claires and told them i'd be the best person for the open assistant manager position and then boom - i'm opening the store today. the 2nd in command, yeah! it gives my job life a little bit more meaning.<br /><br />hurry up and buy your tickets for the greuling battle to the death fight that criss and i are supporting. the cure vs the smiths.<br />see, i think that the cure is the single greatest band ever and criss disagrees and supports the smiths in that position.<br />sure, i LOVE the smiths.<br />but against the cure? pshh. <br /><br />johnny marr has all the talent that simon gallup has in his big toe.<br />william, it was really nothing.<br /><br />i was talking to jordan last night on the phone for an hour or so before i went to bed. i didnt end up falling asleep until 5 in the morning. and i woke up at 8. so here i am, tired, lazy eyed and waking for horrible dreams about loud music inside houses. strange!<br /><br />i havent told them yet, but jordan and i want to hang out with the libertarians today. i think we shall go pay them a visit.<br /><br />well kids, i'm out.<br />love. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eod666:11176 2005-01-30T02:01:29Z 2005-01-30T02:01:29Z so i havent updated this thing in a while. maybe i should start doing that. yeah. <br />anyways, jordan and i decided to call it quits because it was so obvious that we were just best friends and not really BOYFRIENDS. ya know?<br /><br />well i just wanted to flaunt the new guy in my life. his name is mike. weird, huh?<br /><br />here he is ...<br /><br /><img src="http://pictures.greatestjournal.com/userimg/3146070/646159"><br /><br />i havent been on in forever because we moved. oh well. i hate the internet anyways. all i do is just burn cds. bah.<br /><br />gotta get those cds out to those LOS kids.<br /><br />and by the way, i'm an assistant manager at Claire's now. yay. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eod666:10822 2005-01-11T05:32:31Z 2005-01-11T05:32:31Z i am, right at this moment, having a bowel movement.<br />ah, the wonders of wireless internet. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eod666:10562 2005-01-11T00:56:44Z 2005-01-11T00:56:44Z <a href="http://www.celebta.com/CelebDB/top_ten_bods/Angelina_Jolie-Gia-CelebTA_com.jpg">angelina jolie naked</a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eod666:10308 2005-01-10T22:57:33Z 2005-01-10T22:57:33Z the more i think about it, the more i dont want to be famous.<br /><br />i want to smoke a blunt. hmm.<br /><br />i think i'm going to play kingdom hearts.<br /><br />i better get my fucking check soon. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eod666:10005 2005-01-10T07:25:00Z 2005-01-10T07:25:00Z i feel weird and i dont know why. i feel a bit behind. i wsh i were more attractive because life is better that way. yeah.<br />im getting a little irritated with things. with lfe. i dont know.<br />whats going on?<br /><br />it just feels like i'm not doing very much. i just feel like ...<br /><br />i want to get a tattoo.<br />maybe when i move into the 2 bedroom things will be better.<br />i wish i was rich.<br />i'm just bitching.<br /><br />i wish i was a fake pompous make up express fag that lives in LA.<br />speaking of LA, I hope nana is ok ...<br /><br />i have a headache.<br />i can not sleep.<br />some people piss me off merely by their presence and i really dont know how that is.<br /><br />i work 9-5 tomorrow. m not really looking foward to that but oh well. i have to get up at 7:30. aint that some shit. well, i guess being home earlier will be better. from now on, i'm going to work that shift.<br /><br />so i hate my job and i want to transfer to photo. maybe i'll ask bonnie tomorrow if she thinks they are going to hire any more cashiers or people in photo. i know rhaeann hates photo and wants to move to something else but they're keeping her because they need her. i dont know. maybe i'll take her place. <br /><br />when i first started working, it was fun walking up to people and talking to them but now its just getting boring. its getting monotonous. i'm saying the same thing 100 times a day and i've been saying it for a month and a half. gosh what am i going to do wth stuff.<br /><br />tomorrow nikki is dropping me off at home and then she's going to school. i'll be here packing up the last of the shit i have to pack and then i'll fall into a deep slumber. blah.<br /><br />tuesday morning i have to move everything from this apartment into the new one and its going to suck. but why is it going to suck? because scott is going to be here. dont get me wrong. scott is ok. i can tolerate him. i mean, he doesnt get on my nerves when i am A - in the break room at work (because we're only there 10 minutes with each other) or B - when i am drunk.<br /><br />i need a cigarette.<br /><br />he just really getso n my nerves. i am going to enlist the help of jordan and possibly bo too. i'll probably smoke some pot after i move the stuff. in fact i hope i do. i'll need it - putting up with scott all day.<br /><br />and i'll call my mom and ask her to help me too because she can get that bedroom set out of storage and put it in my new room.<br /><br />have to get posters from jordan.<br /><br />so david better bring me my check today or i am going to be pissed. i really need my fucking money, i have bills to pay. I AM SUPPOSED TO BE PAID ON FRIDAY. my check is now three days late and i am angry. i better be getting a commission check with this one, fuckers.<br /><br />oh. i dyed my hair red and i hate it. i think im going to go either ash blonde or just really dark again. come to think of it, i havent been blonde in a while. perhaps i'll do that!<br /><br />i need a cigarette.<br />and i continue to cough,<br /><br />i dont feel tired but i know its in my best interest to go to bed.<br />blah. im in a bad mood i guess.<br /><br />have a good year. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eod666:9649 2005-01-08T03:05:27Z 2005-01-08T03:05:27Z n my own posts on my lvjournal and in aol nstant messenger i wll not be usng the letter "EYE" for a week. lets see how ths goes. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eod666:6016 2004-12-23T23:09:32Z 2004-12-23T23:22:05Z <img src="http://pictures.greatestjournal.com/userimg/2774192/646159"><br /><br />i like what i'm doing for myself these days.